So I didn't pass the exam. Have applied to take it again, in October, in London. With no study leave whatsoever, so it's going to be full time studying and working till then. Feels like the craziest thing I've ever done. I don't remember ever being this stressed out about anything since the A-levels.

Anyways, crossed the event horizon, and all that. I'm committed now. Or I should be committed... in more ways than one. Whatever.

Interesting, though, how moral and other kinds of support comes out from the woodwork, just when I thought I was running this race alone. People whom I never expected to be there are suddenly... there. Kind of like Kosh. "We have always been here..."

As usual, fandom is tempting and distracting, ever more so as the exam approaches. I found myself online last night thinking, "I just need to get on a chat with someone, anyone!" Instead of finding new fandoms to get involved in, I'm now rehashing the old ones where I've been dormant. Dark Angel. Farscape...

One of the reasons I love Farscape is the way that Crichton keeps talking to aliens in pop culture references and "fanspeak" (like my subject heading up there) without ever explaining it. In the second episode, they land on this marsh-like planet, and he goes, "It's like Dagoba. Yoda lives there. He trains warriors." Love it :)

Anyways, exam. Six weeks...