The thing is, while the yelling was cruel and harsh, the rage was almost justified. I had indeed done something for which I needed to be corrected. My sin was thoughtlessness, not malice, but the result was the same. If I had thought someone was maligning the character of a certain colleage, I might have yelled at them, too.
Nevertheless, the punishment was out of proportion to the crime.
Memories of a primary school field trip, where I was the unwitting cause of the entire class being delayed, and scolded as if it had been intentional. A public apology demanded -- and then rejected for being apparently insincere.
Questions arise:
More and more nowadays, I find myself wondering -- are these trials are hints that I am in the wrong profession, or challenges that are meant to be overcome? Am I truly a hopeless disaster in the workplace, or such a (potential) force to be reckoned with that such explosions come to oppose?
Do BT and DS, who on different occasions have suggested that I may be unsuited for the job I have chosen, speak words of wisdom, or play devil's advocate? Has my resolve to continue been strengthened after such counsel because I am doing what I'm meant to be doing, or because I'm contrary by nature?
What do I do after being rebuked for unprofessional behaviour by someone screaming at me in unprofessional anger? Repent, correct my own faults and move on. Yes. Forgive... someday.
But do broken hearts heal?
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i went to a talk yesterday pertaining to my profession...in that talk, it says everyone is born with a heart---a heart that does not have any hurts---the analogy is like a paper heart. but each time when, under circumstances, yr heart is subjected to hurts, a folding is done to the paper heart. so the greater the number is the number of foldings, the more yr heart that has been subjected to hurts. in the end, each of our heart is actually crumbled due to its folding ( hurts). we did not have a crumbled heart in the beginning. .. then we get to meet some frenz/ ppl who make changes and heal our heart. The folded parts start to unfold...unfolding actually represents healing.Though unfolding occurs,but the paper heart will still be crumbled in texture ... it wasn t smooth as it was in the beginning when we were born...this crumbled texture will remain in our heart forever.. it represents that our heart can heal but can t forget... wat is done is done... it can t be undone... broken heart can heal maybe through prayers and with the help of family/ frenz... but broken heart can never forget... it will still remain as crumbled texture...
Pray with confidence... no human is perfect... but there are some ppl who will not highlight other's mistake in an appropriate fashion... they tend to yell (like in yr case), shout and make a huge scene instead of politely highlighting mistakes.. guess thats their nature...
as for yr job, u know best! don t listen to other's views on yr capability of yr job (eg: unsuited).... u know best for yrself!
Good luck:)
PS: sorry, i guess i wrote a long essay... its just some of my humble views on yr post :) take care..god bless u:)